New day new Shit, Happy fucking New Year Friends

Life has come full circle, I spent close to 1/4th of my life realising that it is important to make friends, I worked on this shit for almost 1/4th of my life and now I realise what a piece of crap it is to have friends, and these ridiculuos rules, for saying out loud, why do I have to be friends with a particular person and not with another, I remember once my dad said birds of same feather flock together and adviced me to stay away from one of my close friends, for obvious reasons, he was absolutely like an outlaw, he would do everything that was wrong according to our societal standards, I listened to my dad and that was a correct decision I suppose. I have had all sorts of asshole friends, ones who stole my credit card, ones who took loan on my name(by forging my signature) and never paid that, ones who would not turn up when I needed them and the ones who would sell me over for less than a quid, but then I had people around me who were my fans, they liked the way I dressed up, the way I spoke, the way I managed my finances, the way I climbed the corporate ladder and so on. Do I need firends, the answer is yes I need them, its not a want it is a need, I would rather have people in my life that I like to hangout with, no matter how harmful they are, then being with boring people whom I dont like, but I am supposed to be with them as they are safe, what is this safe shit everyone is freaking out about, life is itslef very boring lets not make it even worse with our wisdom.

Fucking Bored Bitch

Fucking Bored Bitch Thats me, bored all the time, I have had my moments though.......... Well you might wanna say those moments were much more than just moments, moments make your life and bit by bit they make you what you are, or do they? Sounds right, yay! This is the shit we have heard all our lives and it sounds familiar, which makes it sound right. There are only a handful who question the fucking norms, lets question em fucking norms. Let me use the 5W1H(five wives and a husband) formula to decipher this shit. Who made these norms? Why did they make em? what is the impact? When do you learn to live by em? Where did this concept come from? How did they make em a part of our lives? You do what you've got to do and move on Life is such a script thats already written, there are rules laid out and you follow the rules and you get the life you dreamed for, so am I saying dreaming is bad or dreams coming true is not good..... well I dont want to justify anything, but then I have to justify things to myself, if anyone in the world isnt that right? I got off the Uni as a regular student, searched for jobs, landed a good job after trying for 3 years, then got kicked out in 2 months, well seemed like the end of the start, fucking bastards kicked me out after one test, thats it, no more tries and in my naivity I took it as my fault, but it made me very angry when people started sympathising with me as if I was not capble at all. I went for another interview and cracked it with full confidence as I got the gist of how the shit works. I had a dream to work 9 to 5 get a descent salary and get married, have a small house and live happily ever after, aint that simple as fuck, well I always thought of helping people out as well, with the spare money I might have. How do you think all this came to my head? I saw my dad working and earning money to provide for his family which led to us living a comfortable one, I felt thats the way of life and followed in his footsteps, not how he wished it exactly but close to what he wanted for me.

Rishtey

Ek muddat hui ki me soya nahi Dil ke gubbar ne in akho ko bhigoya nahi Jane kaise log rishton ko baandh ke rakh lete hain In hatthon ne toh kabhi rishton ko piroya nahi

Har kisi ko apna banata chala main

kadam ke nishan banaata chala main yadein hi yadein banaata chala kaha rukunga kya pata har kisi ko apna banaata chala main

Savour the lies

There is hardly any truth left in the world so, lets savour the lies

Accepting Rejection

I feel sick

My eyes are burning

I can cry anytime

Why do I feel like this?

This is not something new

In the past I have been through this

This is the feeling of rejection

It does not hurt so much all the time though

But when someone you love does this

It hurts the most

It is happening to you

You can’t accept this

This teaches a lesson

You cannot have everything

You need to learn how to live with rejection

Thrive for acceptance

But don’t try to be accepted every time

It is ok not to be ok

It is ok to be wrong

It is ok to get hurt

The key is to never quit

That's how we speak

I don’t need to meet

I don’t need to be near

I don’t need to be heard

I just wish to see you

And that’s how we meet

I just want something badly

And you bring it to me

That’s how we speak

Coz when I speak

I spoil it so bad

I just don’t want to let you know

Nothing about how I feel

Even when you are angry at me

You look so sweet

There is some connect

There is some vibe

There is something that

Makes me be near

But I just don’t want to let you know

Nothing about how I feel

I say nothing but you hear all of it

And that’s how we speak